lemon tree blossoms. it’s drizzling and I’m pacing. I would like to say I’ve created something inspiring or cooked a delicious meal or helped a neighbor or showed love in some other way. The truth is I’m just kind of paralyzed in silence, choking back tears, and trying not to snap at my kids. That’s just where I am right now. I’ll be stronger and wiser another day but today I’m hiding and terrified.